Back on Fire for HIM!

Have you ever felt SO on fire for something and then all of a sudden that flame just goes out? Cause that's how I feel currently. I took the day off from school yesterday because I wasn't feeling too good. And I told myself I was going to stay cooped up in my room all day and read my Bible. And I was going to do it to, until... I didn't. I just didn't want to. And I tried to pray about it and I didn't want to do that either!! What?! I love praying! I love reading my Bible! What was going on??
I believe that sometimes we push ourselves so far in something without ever realizing it and then we get tired, run out of fuel. Sometimes we have to find our own way to be fed- our own way to fuel our fire.
So after all of this- I was laying in bed last night about to go to sleep and God spoke to me. He said "The best thing to do is to do what you don't want to."
So, if you feel empty or tired and don't want to talk to God- Talk to God. See, I believe He is this way of refueling our fires for us if we let Him. It's pretty cool actually. You just have to be completely vulnerable with Him and be honest and tell him that you don't want to talk to Him and then ask Him for energy and willingness. And most of the time He'll give it to you.
So- When you feel just so overwhelmed- drop everything- Except God.
<3

Taking off our tiaras...

Hello all! Saturday night... I walked into this room and I was with oh about.. 40 girls that I didn't know. We walked in and there were tables set up like a cross that had lights on them and everything was just really pretty and awesome. At each seat there was a tiara. You see- they wanted us to feel like princesses, and what better way to do it than with a tiara, right? And then boys that we all knew were there to serve us and that was way cool! So we all wore our tiaras for a while and then I noticed something.... We were all taking them off. I mean obviously we're going to but... It got me thinking.
Girls are the daughters and princesses of God (while boys are the warriors). And I think that God never intended us to take off our tiaras as His princesses. He is the king and we are His daughters. That's how it's always going to be. And I just... I thought about it. Sometimes we tend to forget who we are in Him. So never forget it! Never forget that you are a princess or a warrior of God. Lets keep our Tiaras that He so gently put on our hearts, as His princesses and princes.

Just a small thought.....

Population Me.

This morning I woke up and decided today was going to be a good day. I woke up and got ready and I thought I looked pretty cute (conceited, I know :P) and I was having coffee with my mentor. And I LOVE coffee! I mean- sounds like a pretty great start to a day, right? I thought so. So, anyway, coffee went well and I had a very good discussion.
And then we were driving to school and I looked at the time and I hated that I knew I was going to be late. And even though it was neither of our faults I was angry that I was going to be late. And then I recieved a phone call from my father yelling at me for something that I also had no control over. My mood went from GREAT to CRAP! in a matter of seconds. Because I was A. Going to be late. B. Got yelled at. Both of which didn't have to have an effect on the rest of my day or on the people I would encounter. But the reality is, it did (until I decided to change that). So I got to school and walked into my government class about 3 minutes late. That's not much, but it is to someone who loves having control. I sat down and the boy behind me, who has never bothered me before suddenly drove me insane. He was commenting on everything, but couldn't to seem to let other people talk. I had just about had it and I, being the blunt person I tend to be, turned around and yelled at him. For being him. That's what he does, he talks. It's how things make sense to him, but I didn't think about that. I thought about me.
Nowww... Rewind. Back to this morning. To the happy Marina. I was listening to music while making myself look cute. And a song came on that I've herd a GAZZILION times. The lyrics go something like "in my own little world of population- me...(so on)" Population me.
While sitting in class I realized how rude yelling at this boy was. But I mean, who cares? Everyone's rude sometimes, right? Well. I care. I let what had happened in my life control how I treated others. I didn't care how he felt, or what he had to say, or give him a chance to defend himself. No. I was in my own little world of population me. Not me and him. Or me and her. Or even me and God. Me.
How are we supposed to share the love of Christ with others if we only think about us? That doesn't really seem to work to me.
So I left Government and went to spanish and I thought about what I just did. And I realized what a rude, selfish thing that was. What are we supposed to do when we no nothing else to do? Pray. So I sat there, ignoring the spanish notes (that i'll probably need sometime soon) and I prayed. Not for me, but for that boy that I had shared my anger with. And I prayed that he would know that I was sorry.
I went on with my day, as my mood got better and better. I was going to the bathroom in math and I saw this boy who sits behind me in government and he approached me. I thought he was going to call me a mean name or something. But no. He apologized. He. Apologized. To me. WHAT??????????!!!! He didn't do anything, I was the rude one. He said he was sorry for not being respectful of people around him. And he's sorry for bothering me. That doesn't make any sense to me. But I think that was God's way of answering my prayers from earlier.
Today I learned that God works thorough everyone. Mostly in people who don't even believe in Him. And that's crazy to think about. But it's true.

So next time something bad happens, or someone makes you angry. Don't live in a world with population you. Live in a world with population- others. And things are sure to turn out. :) It's a promise from the man up-stairs. :)

Beauty in Him

I haven't written in a while, which is sad. But i'm writing now.

Things in life are well.... they seem small. We take a lot of things for granted and therefore pass a lot of things up. A lot of times the world gets in the way of the truth, and simply shows us the lies. It tells us we're not good enough. That we can't do what we want or that we don't look the way we should. But wait. Take a step back. Who is to say what is good enough? Who is to say that we HAVE to look or act or be a certain person? Who took it upon themselves to say what should or shouldn't be important or up to "standards" in ourselves?
God didn't give us these standards, people did. People are so obsessed with the need to conform that everyone starts to blend in, everyone starts to look the same. We're all created in Gods image. We're all created DIFFERENTLY in God's image. And He thinks we're all GORGEOUS! Because... yes while He does think we're beautiful on the outside, God looks past that. He looks at your heart, and gosh there is nothing more beautiful than a heart.
So next time you walk by a mirror and think something negative- think the opposite and know that the highest of high God's thinks that you're the more radiant thing He's ever seen. Because it's TRUE!!!!!! <3

Something Better.

The Bible says that Jesus is coming back to Earth, when we are ready. So, when that happens, what will you do? Because this world is not exactly a safe place and when something happens, you should probably know what you believe. And knowing that when everything is all fine and peachy is easy, but what about when things get hard? What about when your best friend moves away or someone you love dies or you get abandoned or abused? It's not that easy to know and have faith that there is a God that can and will take all of that away.

So now. Take a step back. And look at your past and all the bad things that happened. And the result of them, wether it be the day after or a year after. Did God not bring some kind of good out of it. Did He not dry your tears? Did He not bring you something better? And if not- He will. That's a promise.

Revelation 21:4 

"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes and there will be no more death, sadness, crying or pain. Because all the old ways are gone." 

There is something better out there. This Earth brings pain and tears and things that are a false satisfaction. What God brings is so much better. He brings real happiness and real satisfaction. He brings love, raw, real love. And once you get to that point OHHHH MAN is it wonderful. There is something better than the pain and lies we here in our day to day life. We except that as reality and how it should be, but it's NOT! How it should be is God's way!!!!! 

Uncontainable

This is my first blog! Yay!!! I'm doing this to share what God is doing in my life, and i'm rather excited. For the last 6 days i've been in Kansas City, Missouri and IHOP. And it radically changed me. I realized things God has been trying to tell me for a long long time. And it's time we all take a step out of faith and live in Him. Trusting in God isn't always easy, never really. But the things that we gain from it are above dreams. He is an  uncontainable God, and he won't be contained. He is an all consuming fire and He is standing right in front of you screaming COME TO ME! So lets go to Him. See what He has in store!!!